Laying in bed this morning, I read an email from a friend telling me how impressed she was with me and my passion as a Life Coach. Let me just say, reading that confirmed I would not be going back to sleep this morning. My mind instantly went to one of my favorite stories I like to tell myself about how I talk the talk of a being a Life Coach but I don’t walk the walk.
Proof (oh yeah): Saturday night was girls night out. Not with my normal group of friends, but a group of us moms who’ve interacted through our daughters and their activities. This was the first time we’ve all hung out together. During the evening we drank (a lot), we cussed (sorry Grandma), we fell down (where did that bruise come from?) and almost all of us experienced some flu like symptoms all day on Sunday (hangover-OMG- Yuck!).
On Sunday, while recuperating we were also having a FaceBook chat about all the fun. Because it was a blast!! And do you know what I did? I apologized—for using “the F word” too many times.
A response I received, “Jess, I seriously love you your openness….I’ve never seen that before. To me last night was us being ourselves with no restrictions or having to put a front up. To me I feel like we bonded on a whole new level which is fantastic.”
Truth (oh YEAH): I had a blast with my friends, getting to know them, being me—unfiltered, letting loose, with no husbands and no kids. I drink sometimes, I cuss like a sailor all the time and I fall down, with or without alcohol in my system. That’s me. I’m surface, I’m deep, I’m sassy and I’m organic. There’s many parts that make up all of me. And, I am a Life Coach, living my life as I am—talking the talk and walking the walk as my true self.
This is not the first time I’ve had a great time with friends and found something to apologize for…that’s actually a normal for me. When I apologize it’s a defense thing, not allowing myself to feel OK being accepted as the real me. Not accepting the love and not giving myself love.
What’s your story? What keeps you from sharing and being your true self? What do you apologize for and why?
Examine your story–look at the proof your mind tries to provide, listen to the truth others actually do provide, accept the love, give yourself love. Talk the talk and walk the walk as your true self.
Fucking rock it out!! (Hello from my true self).
